Lana Del Rey - Young And Beautiful (Lyrics)

A new song from Lana Del Rey. Love it very much... You go Lana!!

P.S To men out there who met me before, the one who always praised my beauty and young age, I dedicate this song for you. Beauty is not forever. It will fade one day anyway. So when you praised my beauty, I will just smile. Fake smile. Because there's nothing to proud of about my beauty.

Mr.Junior A.: SIMPLE BUT SINCERE

I met my customer today, Mr. Junior A. What I can describe him is - Short, bald but handsome and love hardcore sex. You must be wondering why do I want to make a post about him. Actually he is someone to me. Not just a customer that wanted sex and give money. During sex with him, I can feel he is there, the love, the feeling.. Well I know one of the Call girl's rule is NOT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH CUSTOMER. Yeah it's true, but he is a special case. But by the way, I don't fall with someone so easily. So nothing to worry about actually. But one thing I'm sure is, I'm going to miss him. A lot.

I love how he kissed me and the way he touch my face, body... Making love and lusty emotion is in the air. I like the way he whispered to my ear " ..You are beautiful dear.." while on top of me. Among all the sex with my customers, he is the only guy who really satisfied me. (Well, we have a non- stop sex from 1:30 p.m until 7:30 p.m . 6 rounds I guess.) 

But of course the long hour service was not about sex only. We had a chit chat and then sex again. We went out to have lunch together and then back to his house and had sex again. We shared a lot of personal story. He shared his, I shared mine. Of course he asked me to stop doing call girl stuff and told me that money is not going to follow me till death anyway. Well his advice were true but bullshit, you're the one who fucking me right now and you're going to pay me anyway.

Lana Del Rey

From the beginning hours of my service, he kept repeating the same thing: "You're beautiful... You're beautiful... You're beautiful..." To be truth, my beauty is simple. Not beautiful as Lana Del Rey, or have a sexy body figure as Marilyn Monroe. I know that  every woman like when man praised their beauty. But beauty are not forever, it will fade one day anyway. And for me, a woman is worthy to call beautiful by their inner beauty. That's what call BEAUTIFUL WOMAN for me.

Marilyn Monroe

Before I met this customer, he told me that he want to make love with me with full of emotion, not just for for lusty feeling or he is horny. He told me he want to show me some respect. He said he is not sure that he will going to pay me or not. To be the truth, when I met a customer treat me that way, I will reject them straight away. But he gave me a  weird feeling. The feeling that I missed long ago. He had the power to make me remember my black past. He gave me the feeling that I always searching for. So I don't mind to give him a free FUCK. 

At the end of service hour, he asked me :" Are yo sure you want me to pay you?" I rejected his payment. Weird right? But he insisted to pay back my taxi fees. While waiting him to send me home, sitting on a bench while reading my Wechat messages, suddenly he approached me with a small black box on his hand. He said to me:" I know it is ridiculous for you, but I hope you will accept it with all your heart. This is a keychain that I bought from Thailand and this red one, I got it from my friend. It's not easy to get it you know. I gave it to you so when you see it, you will remember me." I smiled. He made me smiled. A smiled that hard to explain. I just said to him:" Thank you." He have that gentle but childish way to hook up with a woman. And I love it. Simple but sincere. That what I need in a man.

 Two simple gifts from him. SIMPLE BUT SINCERE :)

P.S He also gave me his favourite sweater. He told me:" Just in case if you are feeling cold, this might help you." But  I forgot to bring it home, left it in his room. Nevermind, I'll get it back in our second meet.And yeahh another thing, he always remind me to keep in touch, don't change contact number and hoping to meet me again. Aww.. he miss me.

Concrete Wall by Zee Avi

Concrete wall by Zee Avi                                                   Me White Coffee.. Me favorita~

"What is this all about, settle down please don't yell or shout..." .. song title concrete wall by Zee Avi, which is one of my favorite singer. What I know about Zee Avi that she is a Malaysian but became famous in USA. Is that true? I'm not sure. Whatever it is, I just love her songs. Soft , cool but sarcastic at the same time. I can feel the anger in her song.  This song really remind me about one of my ex, Nicholson. A guy with his mind full of ego and aggressive too. But still not sure what is the actual reason that made me fell in love with him.When he get mad at me, he will raise his voice. And when I try to make him happy , he thinks that so annoying. 

"..Everytime I make you smile, you said that I'm being a child, well I try my best.." - the lyrics that obviously describe between me and Nicholson.

Sitting in front of my Toshiba laptop and blogging. White Coffee which my loyalty partner all the time during blogging , revision, drawing.. I just love coffee. Owh yeah... and food too. Just love them!

I have a lot of offers this month. Guess this is a lucky month for me huh. There are two customer need my service. So i'm going to meet them next Wednesday in hotel of course. First customer willing to pay RM300 for 3 hours and the second only RM150. So i got RM450 in one day. But the problem is i have a love bite on my breast. Thanks to my ex who made it. I know you feel confuse right now. I met my ex today and had sex with him - that is the whole summary of 2 days meet up,

Nothing to update today actually.Just rest at home, waiting for the day to meet customer, then get paid.

P.S. I saw a couple was having their weeding outdoor shooting beside the road today. Lovely couple huh.. May God bless both of  you.

A little bit about kindness.

Three little beggars .(Just for illustration display only)

Today when i was waiting for my friend  in a restaurant, 3 beggars approached me. All are kids.I guess they are siblings - 2 sisters and 1 brother. The older sister was carrying her little brother and her other little sister followed her from behind. They came to me and asked for money. I ignored them at first but later i felt pity with them. They told me:"Please..please sister. Hungry..hungry.. Pity us.." with a weak and soft voice.

Actually since last month I was thinking about donating money to the poor and needy. It's not like I;m going to donate RM100 to the poor or give them cheque. I'm not that rich. But the reason why I want to do that is because of my mom's advice. Well, my mom never know about my part time job. But she did told me share what we have to the needy. Learn to give and take. Life need balance. Actually it is true. That what i does until today. Everytime I got money from my sugardaddy, I give some to the needy. Don't be too greedy. I know i'm a call girl, but I still a human being. Maybe some of you judge me as dirty, cheap, slut or whatever. Call me what you want because I deserve it. But still deep in my heart, I have the kindness to the poor and needy.

I gave them RM10 which can buy 3 container of economic meals for them. I felt great today. To be the truth, for those peoples who worked as janitor, labor or halal employment, I salute all of you for having a strong heart to confront all the hardship of life. May God bless all of those peoples.